Better late than never!
I did manage to remember to weigh myself on the first morning of the month. I rarely weigh myself these days because I feel like that is one small thing I can do to work on my disordered eating problems. Not to mention that the scale doesn't seem to bring a lot of good news lately!
Highest Weight: 129.7 kilos (285 lbs)
Last Month Weight: 82.5 kilos (181.5 lbs)
Current Weight: 81 kilos (178 lbs)
Loss: 1.5 kilos (3.5 lbs)
I can't say that my eating had the balance I was looking for this month. Life stresses have caused my band to shut up shop and not let me eat anything more than ice cream and chips. I somehow recorded a loss of 1.5 kilos this month, which was pleasing, but I think that is mostly because my January 1st weigh in was crazy high from Christmas bingeing, and not because I ate particularly well this month.
Not being able to eat this month has just been so frustrating. I am not zen about my band being tight, I fight it every step of the way with grim determination. My band tells me it can't eat the pizza, so we have a stand-off where I spend the next 5 hours picking away until I finally get some of it down. Then I eat a block of chocolate because I feel so unsatisfied by my dinner. People like me should not have lap bands!
So I have finally booked in with my lap band doctor for an unfill on Tuesday night. It seems lifes little stresses are not getting any easier and it is best if I admit defeat and get a lot of fluid out. I just hope that I don't go crazy with the emotional eating when I can get food down again. Maybe tightness was better for me...
I am already expecting to gain a bit of weight this month because I'll be on holidays for 2 weeks for my brother's wedding in Byron Bay and I am not one to cut corners on holiday eating and drinking! I would really like to work on getting my weight back down to below 80 kilos and staying there. I would be thrilled if I could hold a steady 75 kilos (165 lbs) by the middle of the year and then take a break from this weight loss and weight gain roller coaster for a while!