Sickness, Jobs and The Big O

There is not much happening in terms of weight loss for me at the moment. It really hasn't been a focus while I am not feeling the best. I haven't been able to exercise because I haven't had the energy and I am one of those people who just cannot shift weight without quite vigorous exercise. So I have just been staying away from the scales and trying not to worry about it too much.

The sensible side of my brain constantly tells me not to diet or restrict my eating, but the side of my brain that has dieted for 25 years wants to say 'starve yourself so you don't gain weight'. Then I get confused and dive into a tub of cookies and cream ice cream! Damn you ice cream and BBQ crisps for sliding through my band so nicely.

Work is incredibly busy at the moment and that, teamed with the lack of sleep, is making me feel a little frazzled. I actually lost my shit altogether on Friday and broke down in the bathrooms at work after a colleague was quite rude to me. It was definitely an over-reaction on my part, I have encountered way meaner people than him and been OK. I have never cried at work before, I used to take a lot of abuse in my last job and I made a rule that I would never cry at work (though I did cry once in the car after a particularly abusive client, but I made it to the car, so that doesn't count right?). So it goes to show that I am kind of at my wits end at the moment and I don't feel like myself.

I am off to see an infectious diseases specialist next week at the Royal Melbourne Hospital. I have been through every test possible and they can see my body has an infection, but they don't know what it is just yet. In the mean time, I haven't been able to do much and I'm boooored. So I kind of feel like I have nothing to say at the moment except 'I'm tired' and 'I'm bored', so I am doing you a big favour by not blogging much.

OK, so the has been very 'woe is me' post, so let me lighten the mood with less depressing news. Last week wasn't all bad, I was given an employment opportunity at a previous employer. I was actually walked off the premises by security when I gave my notice because I was going to a competitor . So the fact they would offer me a job out of the blue was quite a shock. I did turn them down for numerous reasons, but it kept life interesting for a couple of days.

In other news, a certain American talk show host who is coming to Australia in December contacted me with a possible opportunity to be on her Sydney show for a make-over. Ultimately I decided not to go ahead with it because, despite what it may seem like on this blog, I am actually a very private person and I just couldn't handle the idea of my business being on TV. I had an instant panic attack at the mere idea of the whole situation, so I knew I had to say no and I don't regret it at all.

OK, I have a date with a hot shower and the fresh sheets on my bed.