This week I have tentatively moved back to my apartment and gone back to work full time because my mum has got some strength back now that she has finished chemo. Unfortunately her health could go downhill any day so I am trying to make the most of her good days and get some work done and enjoy being home. The routine of normal life will be a huge help in regaining my health and fitness. I am just a mess when I am out of routine. Who knew that grocery shopping, cooking meals, going to work and being at home could feel so amazing!
It seems that the rude shock I got from the scales last week has given me the push I needed to try and get my health back on track. I am no longer in denial that my weight 'isn't that bad' and ready to do the work to lose the weight. I am really trying not to be too hard on myself for the massive gain over the past 6 months year... but that is much easier said than done!
While I was looking after my mum for the past few months I managed to get myself seriously addicted to sugar again. My mum had no appetite at all during chemo so I had the house full of high calorie treats to try and entice her to eat something... instead she lost 20 kilos and I gained 20 kilos!Almost ever single evening I would binge eat on sugars because I felt like I deserved it or even needed it because I was so stressed out or had a bad day or I was lonely or whatever excuse I came up with that day.
I knew I needed to have a bit of a sugar detox so I have completely eliminated sugar from my diet so my body can stop the intense cravings. My body is in serious hurt from this withdrawal and just wants to sleep and my legs feel like concrete. Does this exhaustion wear off eventually? I feel like a zombie right now... a very bitchy zombie who wants to eat chocolate!
I can't type anymore... too tired from lack of suagr...
Oh man - Sugar detox is the worst! yes - zombie feeling is normal and will subside after three days or so then you will have tons of energy! So happy to hear you are able to focus on yourself for a bit while you mom is feeling better. Hang in there - I think of you often and wish you strength and good vibes!
ReplyDeleteI agree with everything Vanessa wrote! You've got this!
ReplyDeleteI need to do this I was going to get Sarah Wilsons sugar free book I've heard it's very good
ReplyDeleteIts very hard Tully. The way to get through those first few days is to eat more of what you can have. Keep lots of protein snacks on hand or veggies like cherry tomatoes or snap peas which are a bit 'sweet'. If you want Sarah Wilsons e-book, email me and I can pass it on.
ReplyDeleteGood to hear your mum has some strength back xx
What a rough time of it you've had... give yourself a pass and just move ahead from here. I know what it is like to deal with the illness of a parent and it is just so painful that eating right can be the last thing on your mind. If you're feeling strong enough to adjust- good for you! But be easy on yourself and try to take small steps... perhaps focus on eating more high protein foods, and I would hope that your sugar intake would diminish due to less cravings over time. Best of luck on this, keep trucking.
ReplyDeleteHang in there!!! It will get better!
ReplyDeleteHope you are starting to recover a bit!!!! Ditto everyone above.....definitely up the protein!!!!
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