Sunday, April 15, 2007

I Don't Know How To Feel

I haven't weighed myself for 3 weeks now and I feel really strange. My flat mate asked me how I am feeling about my weight and I didn't know what to say. I normally dictate how I feel depending on what I weigh and without knowing how much I weigh, I just don't know how to feel.

In the past if I lose a kilo, I look in the mirror and think I look thinner, if I gain a kilo I think I look fatter. If I am losing weight then I can go out and see friends, if I am gainging weight then I shouldn't leave the house. It is all in my head.

I think it is good for me to do this for the moment. I need to stop valuing myself by what the scales say. Hopefully as I get a better attidue about food and exercise, I will get a better attitude about the scales.

4 comments:

  1. It sounds as though your change in emphasis has been great for your mindset, Tully - though just make sure of that when you do eventually decide to weigh in; quite often the moment I got back on the scale after a month it was 'the same old feeling'. Perhaps during this time you can think of other ways to regularly measure your progress? (Centimetres lost? Seconds/Minutes consecutive jogging? Or just keeping an eye on your heartrate when on exercise machines?)

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  2. Don't worry so much about the number. How do you feel? Quit looking in the mirror so much. Take a picture, it lasts longer and you have a great view of what the world sees. I have been doing that myself.

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  3. We do focus on the numbers too much hey...?? I am obsessed about the number 85 at the moment .... All I want is to be lower than that f*&$'n number!! lol ....
    Why do we do it to ourselves??

    I am glad you are feeling better about yourself!! ....

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  4. I am in the same boat as you - you put it into words for me.

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Awww thanks so much for the comment!