Monday, February 09, 2009

Fatter Than Fat

I went shopping on the weekend to escape the 48 degree temperatures (that wasn't a typo, it was 48C or 118F in Point Cook where I live) on Saturday and it turns out that was a big mistake. I started in Myer and begrudgingly grabbed the size 24's on the wrack and imagine my horror when not single thing I tried on fit me. At first I thought I had picked up the wrong sizes or that the clothes were badly shaped. Of course I could only carry on this delusion for so long before I realised that I am just too fat for fat clothes. The horror.

I have gone from last year fitting into a size 16 in a normal size shop, to currently not fitting into the largest size available at a plus size clothes department. The thing is, I wasn't just shopping for fun, I need clothes for work. I have worn the same pair of black (stretchy) pants to work every day since Christmas. I am starting to wonder if people at work are making fun of me behind my back. The worst thing is that I have a very important two day work event at the end of this month whereby I will be talking to every single one of my clients and I must dress professionally.

I used to have a pretty good supply of plus size business and casual clothes, but I gave it all away to the Salvos when I lost weight. Every time I think I have this thing kicked, it just comes back faster and harder it seems.

This clothing debacle came on top of me deciding to peak at the scales that morning, only to see a gain. WTF. This is why I hate weighing myself. I do everything right and still gain. Maybe it is just normal body fluctuations, but maybe I am eating too much/not enough on Weight Watchers. And so the mind games begin...

Of course, given the tragic events in Victoria since Saturday I can see that this pales in comparison to what other people around me are going through. I am just glad being fat is all I have to worry about. I am heartbroken that my favourite place in the whole world has been totally wiped out by the fires, my dream to move to Marysville and open a cupcake shop has been dashed... My heart goes out to everyone who lost their loved ones and homes.


  1. I've been following the heat in Australia on the news and even when you tell me the numbers they just don't seem real to me, I can't even imagine it. Point Cook seems a somewhat apt name though.

    Maybe you could incorporate some more exercise to give your weight watchers a boost? If you've been sticking to the plan and it hasn't been working it may help, or is it possible you have a certain friend coming for a monthly visit?

  2. It's so comfy! I always hated sitting on bike seats, now it's like I have a chair.

  3. I've had the same problem on the bikes you have to lean forward on. The good thing about it is that you're actually sitting leaning slightly back, so your stomach doesn't/can't get in the way. It also feels quite relaxed, so you don;t notice how far you're going.

  4. I hate that feeling of "nothing fits". Especially as we have so little option over size 16!! Heat doesn't help with weight loss, you retain fluid big time.

  5. Don't give up yet, give it a bit longer, talk to your leader he/she may have some ideas.

    Unfortunately it takes time to lose weight when you do it right.

  6. It's tempting to give in when you are trying your darndest and still see a gain.

    Please don't beat yourself up about this, like saying you are too fat for plus sized clothes.

    Use this to show yourself again how strong you are and what you can do.

    And in the meantime? Torrid for some pants. :) Best wishes!

  7. I'm so sorry for your horrible shopping trip. I'm in the exact same position, this time last year I'd gotten down to a size 14-16 and now I'm back in the fat clothes shops horrified to find size 22 jeans don't even get over my hips. I too proudly gave away all my fat clothes to the op shop as I lost and have been wearing the same 2 or 3 skirts to work for months.

    I'd definitely talk to your leader and see if they can give you a boost programme for a week or two. The heat plays a huge part though, I'm in Melbourne aswell and I have really noticed how puffy I've been with swollen ankles in this heat.

    Hang in there, we'll get there :-)

    My thoughts are with all the fire affected, watching the news is very hard to take in at the moment.

  8. I feel for you, I hate this feeling! You already resent having to get the largest size to try on... and then it doesn't even fit! It's just crushing :-(

    I'm so sorry for all the Aussies who've had to deal directly or indirectly with these terrible fires. I can't even imagine how that must feel...

  9. PS what do you even wear in 48° weather???

  10. Just to let you know that here: has links to many online stores that ship worldwide. I use them to get plus size clothes here in Japan (because the idea of it doesn't really exist here). That way at least you can stop worrying about how to get work clothes while you sort out the best way to continue.

  11. You're welcome. I'm in exactly the same boat as you in that I can;t find clothes in my size. It was such a worry with work clothes and things that it was hard to focus on other stuff, so it's less pressure when you know you can get new things. CHECK THE SIZE CHARTS. FOR EVERYTHING. I would say for you to measure yourself before you start because the sizes differ so much you wouldn't believe. Just take the size number with a pinch of salt and use the measurements.

  12. Hey my darling!! I too went shopping on Sunday .... I am sad to say I grabbed a few items from City Chic .... I was so depressed about the whole trip that I have been super on track!! I don't want to do that again :(
    You know what tho .... You are one hot looking chicky big or small and nothing will take that away!!! xx

  13. ***Hugs*** sweetie.

    I know you don't believe it, but just wanted to let you know from an outsider's perspective that you look beautiful, no matter what your size.

    Hang in there with WW. The heat and hormones can play havoc with the scales but if you keep following the plan, the weight will shift. I know how devastating it can be when the stupid scales don't reward your hard work, though. *hugs!*


  14. City chic sounds like a goer...
    Sorry to hear you had such a crap time shopping.. that usually makes us feel better about ourselves not worse...
    I hope this heat eases off soon! Your workmates prob havent even noticed you are wearing the same pants.. i wear the same skirt all week to work.. but I actually have three the same and use that as my uniform... I just change my black tops... they comment when I actually wear a colour top tho!..
    Hugs to you.. dont give up... wont be long and you will breeze through shopping again...

  15. I just had to rush back..I remebered a shopping site I used to frequent and get catalogs from.. ezy buy... I just clicked on one pair of pants in the Sarah range and they go up to a 28!... have you tried there??? and no I am not saying you are anywhere near a size 28... but was excited to see that maybe there is something there to help you out for a few weeks...
    I am not saying this is exactly what you are looking for.. but here is the link to the ones I found..

    Hugs Nannette

  16. Ohh thats a bit wierd..and no I am not stalking you.. it is coming up with my name not my blog addy...
    Its wannaBslim...

  17. Oh Tully your shopping experience is something that i'm sure many of us can relate to - I avoid clothes and wear things out for that very reason, I hate shopping with a passion!

    As to the Weight Watchers thing - there are a HEAP of reasons that your body could be holding on weight, and all of them make perfect sense - try juggling things around, checking and double checking points, limiting carbs, watching sodium levels etc etc - you'll soon get a feel for what works for you, it may take some time but it will happen.

    I agree completely with your thoughts regarding the bushfires, it's such a tragic, tragic loss! My heart goes out to everyone affected.

  18. Sorry the shopping trip wasn't more successful. I can't say I've ever been clothes shopping "for fun".

    I hope you find what you need.


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