Most of the time as we lose weight we are celebrating our new slimmer bodies, fitting into smaller sized clothes, reaching new fitness goals and living life to the full. But, losing a significant amount of weight can be an emotional experience and brings to the fore a lot of feelings that we used to bury in food.
I went out for drinks with a friend on Friday night and, very unexpectedly, I received a bit of attention from guys. I am not used to this at all and it was quite surprising and unwelcome. I felt uneasy about it on Saturday, but for the most part I just pushed it away in my mind, but unfortunately my subconscious wasn't so successful. Last night I had quite a horrific nightmare about being out drinking with this same friend and then being sexually attacked by a man. The last thing I remember in the dream before I woke up was thinking "I wish I had never lost weight and then this wouldn't be happening".
The lap band is a tool that can help you to stop overeating physically, but it obviously doesn't deal with the reasons why we were eating ourselves to death in the first place. I had always thought that I overate because I was just a pig and because I loved food so much. I knew that eating was a comfort for me, but I didn't really know why. I really never tried to understand why I overeat, in fact, I actively avoided thinking about it. I guess if I really want to successfully lose weight with the lap band I need to make an effort to understand why I want to overeat.
Right now I am feeling quite flat and like eating my weight in chocolate would be a nice idea. Why can't getting a lap band just be easy...