Thursday, January 05, 2012


Despite banging on about how I was going to lose weight over December, I was a big fat failure and gained a stack of weight. Shocker! I spent my holidays sitting at home and eating like it was my full time job and the scales reflected these poor choices when I weighed in on January 1st 2012 at 82.5 kilos (181.5 lbs). Ouch.

This is number is interesting for two reasons. Firstly, it is exactly what I weighed on January 1st 2011. Secondly, it is the highest I weighed on the scale all year (apart from on the 1st day of the year of course). What a way to end the year!

So I am choosing to take the positive from this and recognise how fantastic it is that I maintained my weight for the whole year. It is the first time in my life that I have neither lost or gained weight in a year, so that is something to be happy about. Of course it would be better if I was at goal weight and maintained, instead of 15 kilos away from a healthy weight, but we can't have it all.

While I am trying my best to see the positive in the way I maintained my weight all year, I am not so delusional that I can't see that I made a lot of mistakes. I spent the entire year on some kind of diet (or breaking my diet) only to lose and gain the same 5 kilos all year. I could have saved myself all that pain and heartache and just eaten a balanced diet instead of killing myself with diets and exercise for no result.

Not only that, but if I had just eaten normally and moved slightly more and eaten slightly less junk I could have not felt deprived and lost even just half a kilo a month. Half a kilo a month would obviously be 6 kilos (13 lbs) lost in the year and much better than the big fat zero kilos I lost.

So the lesson I am taking from this year is that the dieting has to stop. I know I have said this many times before, but I really mean it this time. Right now I feel fat and bloated and my clothes don't fit me and I would love nothing more than to starve myself down a few kilos until I feel more comfortable. These behaviours have to stop because 2011 proved that it doesn't work and it is a miserable way to live.

I have to be a bridesmaid in a beach wedding in just 7 weeks and I want more than anything to plan a massive diet and try and lose 7 kilos before the wedding. It pains me to say that I am not going to do that. I am going to eat sensibly and I certainly won't eat perfectly, but if I eat well enough to lose a kilo over the course of the month, than I would hope that is a kilo that will never come back again.

I would love to be able to finish 2012 and say that I lost between 5-10 kilos over the course of the year and I didn't feel deprived and I didn't have to diet and I can keep this weight off forever. I just need to reverse 25 years of dieting mentality first, so this may be easier said than done, but I am going to try.



  1. Not gaining weight is a tremendous achievement! I have friends who have never counted a calorie in their life who suddenly put on 5 lbs this year. They are freaking out, let me tell you!

    It sounds like you're very aware of what set you back, that's the very important first step right there. :)

  2. I can recommend coaching from - Sandy is all about not dieting and learning to listen to your body. I found it really helpful!

  3. Good for you for recognising what you need to do - work hard and you will achieve it !!

  4. Our crazy numbers! Being the same weight from 1/1/11 to 1/1/12 would set off my OCD for ages!! It is so easy to get complacent around the early 80s isn't it? Cos u just look and feel so good, but lie you, I am 15kgs away from healthy. And I need to kick the mentality too!

  5. You did gain, before the band, could you ever say that? Having said that, I totally agree with the no diet. They don't help and just hake us feel worse when we stop them and all the weight comes back on!

    Stick to the Bandster rules and you will make it to your goal for the year :o)


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