Overwhelmed

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Oh boy, it has been a pretty full on couple of weeks! I swear my life seems to abide by the 'it never rains, but it pours' policy.

First there was my body lift surgery follow up appointment on Tuesday where I received the news that further surgery was recommended. Since then my mind has been full of surgery quotes, health insurance item numbers and bank loans. Should I? Shouldn't I? Yes, No, Maybe. I am so confused!

Work has been unusually manic with a massive event that has kept me busier than I have been in the past two years. I don't mind being busy at work, it is just a pain when it means having to work late. I have an extremely busy reality television schedule right now and I don't want to have to choose between My Kitchen Rules, Masterchef and The Block... This is a choice that no reality TV addict wants to make!

Then house stuff decides to explode as well. The lease on my apartment comes up for renewal this week and I have had to negotiate a new lease and do my best to talk my real estate down from a big rent increase. Luckily I talked her down to $10 per week and signed the new lease today. Phew, I just couldn't handle having to move yet again.

The big house news is that the house I am building is almost finished!!! Yesterday I had to go to Drysdale (90 minutes away) and do the final inspection with the builder. Then in two weeks we will get the keys and my mum can move in. There is still a lot of work for me to do now and this week I have been busily organising the driveway, fencing, lighting, curtains, garden etc. I really couldn't be happier with how the whole process has gone, there were some bumps along the road, but nothing in comparison to the horror building stories I have heard. Here is a little sneak peak on how it is looking...

On top of all this, AJ started a new job this year and has been busy working long hours while he settles in. Then, in the one week, he received two very good job offers out of the blue and he has been all in a tizz trying to work out what he should do. We both have so much on our minds that we have barely spoken two words to each other because we are busy staring off into space thinking and worrying!

Finally, we go on holidays to Thailand for two weeks on Tuesday, which is amazing, but requires a lot of organisation. My head is swarming with printing ticket confirmations, downloading kindle books, getting my eyebrows waxed, getting a pedicure, locating my passport, buying power adapters, getting money exchanged, buying immodium, thinking about what to pack, and the million other things on my list of things to do before we go away.

Obviously I can't complain about going on holidays at all, but with everything going on my anxiety has reared it's ugly head and I have been feeling more than a bit overwhelmed. Of course, because my lap band is a little bitch and can sense my anxiety, it decides to shut up shop and make it impossible for me to eat much more than ice cream. Oh well, lucky Melbourne is in the midst of a heat wave and the ice cream is going down a treat!

So, nothing bad is going on right now, in fact a lot of great things are happening, but anxiety doesn't recognise this and just casts a great big dark shadow of insomnia, nausea, negativity and panic over me. Hopefully this will all fade away when I am sipping cocktails by the pool in Thailand...

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