Friday, February 04, 2011
I normally eat my dinner at 6.30 pm and then go to the gym about 7.30 pm. I obviously eat a pretty light dinner because I know I am about to go and workout and I don't want a big meal in my tummy. Oh god, that reminds me of the time AJ ate a massive Indian takeaway meal before going to his first ever personal training session at the gym. Needless to say he vomited in the bin on the way back to the car. Funniest night ever.
Anyway, what was I saying? Late night munchies. I normally get home from the gym about 9.30 pm, shower, organise my lunch for work, lay out my clothes for the next day, blow dry my hair and go to bed to read or watch TV at about 10.30 pm. I can tell you must be envious of my ultra glamorous life right now...
Once I have finally settled down for the night I realise that I am ravenously hungry. Like I could eat my own arm I am so hungry, but I have a pretty strict 'no snacking' policy. I eat 3 meals of about 400 calories each and try not to snack in between. Last night I ended up eating a muesli bar at about 11.30 pm because I was feeling sick from hunger.
I know the obvious solution would be to just go to sleep, but I am normally so amped up from running around all night that I am still buzzed. Plus, that hour or so at night is normally the one time in my day that I have for myself and can really feel relaxed and I need it to keep my sanity.
I guess the other obvious thing is that I need more fill in my lap band. Late last year I had .4 mls taken out, which is quite a lot, so much so that I can easily eat a freaking steak sandwich. I hate the idea of having more fill in my band because I am back to being the weirdo who goes out for lunch and stresses about getting food stuck or spends half my night in the restaurant bathrooms. I need to make the decision between constant hunger or social awkwardness with food... I know it shouldn't be that hard, but I have never managed to reach the 'sweet spot' where I am satisfied and can still eat a wide variety of foods without getting stuck. I guess I'll keep trying, maybe the next fill will hit that mysterious 'sweet spot'.