Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Not Again

Every time i start to do well on a diet and start to look and feel good I totally screw it up. Last Friday night was a bit of a turning point, I was dressed up and had my hair and make-up done for a work function and people were noticing I have lost weight. Then on Saturday I managed to squeeze into my jeans for the first time in ages and my mum and gran made a fuss about how much weight I have lost.

So what do I do? I eat non stop for the past 4 days.

Every time I feel good about myself I just seem to get too excited and totally drop the ball. I have heard people call this self-sabotage, but I am not sure if this is the case for me. I am so happy when I lose weight and feel confident and have so much fun, why would I do this to myself? Maybe there is a deeper reason for it, I just wish I knew what it was.

I think I have pulled myself into line today, hopefully I haven't done too much damage. I might put off weighing myself for a little while though, I don't need to see that shit.


  1. Fair enough to, I am not going to weigh this week either I think, I don't want to get depressed! I have been eating like my life depended on it for the past few days, got a bit down really. Oh well, life is not all about what we weigh at the end of the day eh?

  2. I think you should explore the reason why this happens to yourself. Part of the journey towards a healthier, fitter you is learning to understand who you are and why you do things. And knowledge is power, so when you have the knowledge about where you are NOW, you'll have the power to take that to where you want to be.

    Right. So that's the airy fairy part of my comment. Now for the whoopass part.

    *grabs your shoulders*

    You have NOT totally screwed up. DO YOU HEAR ME? You are STILL here, STILL blogging, STILL wanting to make a change, and as long as you don't decide to abandon your attempts to effect that change, then YOU HAVE NOT SCREWED UP.

    The most important thing now is to Just. Keep. Going. I hope you aren't feeling guilty for the fact that you *gasp* ate some food *faint*, since that's way more damaging than the unused energy intake that you consumed.

    You are still here. That's what matters. {{{HUGZ}}}

  3. Hey. I wouldn't let yourself get too down. It happens. At 130am last night, I hadn't gone to sleep yet - I really wanted to order chinese food. In my mind I had decided it was okay - I didn't do it of course - but those thoughts cross my mind EVERYDAY. Its what you do TODAY that makes the difference. It does feel good to loss weight...you know that. Just do better tomorrow. I know you can. :)

  4. I can relate .... I have done the same thing in the last 2 days ... I ate so much last night I couldn't sleep on my full tummy! Why do we do it to ourselves??
    NO MORE Tully ... we only have 3 weeks to go before we have our wedding/holiday!! Bugger ... wish I had of started back when we first talked about it!! .... Stupid b&%$! .... *shrugs* Only I can change the next 3 weeks!! ...

  5. Four days in a lifetime of health, isn't much. You can get back to good eating and losing weight. We have all fallen off the wagon at some point (at many points certainly for me) but there is no expiration date on this 'journey' (I hate the word, but can't seem to think of a better one). Keep blogging and you will succeed!


Awww thanks so much for the comment!