Saturday, August 25, 2012

Friday Weigh In- 24 August


Start: 87.5 kilos (192.5 lbs)
Last week: 78.1 kilos (171.8 lbs)
Today: 77.3 kilos (170 lbs)
Loss: 0.8 kilo (1.7 lbs)
Total: 10.2 kilos (22.4 lbs)

Gosh, I nearly sobbed with happiness when I saw the scale this week. I had snuck a peek earlier this week and the scale had spiked up due to it being that time of the month, so I was shocked to see the scale go down by so much on Friday morning.

I have now lost over 10 kilos since I started my final 15 challenge on the 3 year anniversary of my lap band on the 22nd May. The number 77 on the scales is my happy place and I just feel so much more comfortable at this weight. I would still like to lose another 2-5 kilos, but I guess I am just kind of shocked that I have even got this far, so I am thrilled!

Over the past 18 months I have struggled to get my head in the right space to lose weight and I really didn't know if I had it in me anymore. I completely lost faith in myself and I stopped putting the effort in, but everything has clicked for me this time and I feel really positive about what I am doing. I am eating foods that fuel me and doing exercises I enjoy (as much as I can ever enjoy exercising) and I am getting amazing results.

The best part about the last few months isn't even the weight loss (though it is awesome), it is how my attitude has changed. I was so sick of being miserable, negative and depressed. I just didn't feel like myself and I felt so powerless to change and it was quite scary. 

I actually can't take the credit for the change in my attitude because the big factor has been that I have finally been able to find a medication for my anxiety that has helped. Last year I tried 3 different kinds of medications that gave me severe side effects and left me feeling like a zombie. I ended up feeling worse before I got better and then in the  middle of this year I felt like I had the strength and determination to give it another try. 

It hasn't been smooth sailing, I have suffered a crazy amount of insomnia, but that is a small price to pay for me to feel like my old self again.

6 comments:

  1. Well done on finally getting yourself sorted out again... medication can make a world of difference... and being on the right one can take time.

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  2. Such a great post-love the positivity youre feeling and that its about managing the stress not necessarily the weight even. x

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  3. That's wonderful! It really is amazing how your life can change when you get that right attitude. Very inspiring! Keep up the great work!

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  4. Happy dancin' on all accounts for you!!!!!!!!!! xoxoxo

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Awww thanks so much for the comment!