I was enjoying a delicious cheese tasting on holidays in Tasmania on Friday afternoon when I received a message from my body lift surgeon's office asking me to call them urgently. Uh oh. I could just tell this wasn't going to be good news. My biggest fear all along has been that my surgery would be delayed or cancelled for some reason. I remember feeling exactly the same way before my lap band surgery.
Anyway, once my panic attack subsided I called the surgery and spoke to my surgeon's assistant. It turns out rather than my surgery being delayed or cancelled, it actually has to be moved forward because my surgeon has to go overseas. Wow, I was not expecting that news. Then my panic attack promptly returned.
My surgery was originally planned for Thursday 22nd November and it has been moved to Tuesday 6th. I know it is only 16 days early, but it has put me in a bit of a spin. Instead of my surgery being a month away, it is now 2 weeks away. This time in 2 weeks I will have already had surgery. That is so soon. It also means that I have slim to nil chance of reaching my surgery goal weight now, which is disappointing because it was shaping up to be the first time I would meet a weight loss goal I had set for myself.
I really liked my original surgery date of November 22nd. It was exactly 3 years and 6 months since I got my lap band. It meant that after my 4 weeks sick leave I would have an additional 2 weeks Christmas leave to recover. I now have to cancel or change at least 10 medical and beauty appointments I had made to ensure I had everything covered before surgery (yes, I am high maintenance). Not to mention the 90 minute hot stone massage, dinner at Rockpool and luxury stay at Crown Towers I had booked as a treat to myself. Sob.
The worst bit is that I haven't actually even told my work yet because I have only just returned from holidays. That is going to be fun tomorrow... Lucky I work with a very supportive and flexible team so I am sure it won't be a problem but I feel awful about it. Even worse, AJ has to change 2 interstate trips he had planned for work because they now fall within the week I am having surgery. Ahhh, I hate being a pain in the arse.
Look, I am EXTREMELY happy that my surgery hasn't been cancelled or delayed, but I am obviously a control freak! It will all be OK and I am still super excited about the surgery, I just need a few days to adjust to the change.
The silver lining is that I am changing my life for the better 16 days sooner than anticipated and that is awesome!!!