Just Thought I'd Let You know...

WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me, my brothers and my brothers girlfriend enjoying our blue "Ablett" cocktails at half time.


In the final quarter we were pretty sure we had it in the bag!


After the game things started to get messy...

Not Again...

So I jumped on the scaled this morning to see yet another gain... Not much, 100 grams, but that is more then enough when you are expecting a loss.

I got up every day this week at 6.30am and exercised for 30 minutes before walking to work. I know 30 minutes isn't that long, but considering I haven't done much exercise for a while I thought it would be a good way to ease my way into things. Plus I walk 25 minutes to work and 25 minutes back every day, so I count that as exercise too.

I am guessing the problem might be the carbonara I ate for lunch yesterday. I was having a shocking day, nothing out of the ordinary just the usual "I hate my job and everyone I work with" kind of day. I kept repeating to myself "Food will not help", but in the end I caved and had a lovely carbonara on Lygon st and a glass of red wine and you know what- it did make me feel better!

I am disappointed, but I am not going to let it upset me. Plus I have much bigger things on my mind...

My beloved Cats are playing in the AFL grand final tomorrow against Port Adelaide. I tried everything in my power to get tickets, but sadly to no avail. :-( So I might go down to the Geelong home ground, Kardinia Park, and watch the game with other Geelong supporters on the big screen.

It has been 44 years since we won a premiership and we have had a great season:
- We finished on top of the ladder
- Joel Selwood won the Rising Star
- Jimmy Bartel won the Brownlow
- Our VFL side won the grand final
Now we just need to put the icing on the cake!




GO CATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fu*king Gain

I am grumpy today! I got on the scale this morning to register a 1 kilo gain since my last weigh in 2 weeks ago. It is totally deserved because I ate crap all last week, but I was living in some delusional dream world where I thought everything would be OK.

So now I am in a bad mood and I just want this day to be over. Thank god it is Friday! Though Friday poses my usual challenge, can I get through tonight without a pig out? I haven't gone a Friday night without eating unhealthy in months. I can get through every other night, but Fridays I just lose it. Normally I wouldn't care too much because I am a big believer in having a break once a week, but I really want to get that unwelcome extra kilo off ASAP.

I get so screwed up by the numbers on the scale. Already when I look at myself I look fatter and my clothes look tighter. I know I shouldn't let it affect me so much, but I can't seem to stop letting those stupid numbers do my head in.

The good thing is that it has given me a bit of a push to do better and shown me that I am not invincible- if I eat take away every night I will gain weight. I am making a vow to post a loss this time next week. I am going to work my fat arse off!!!

Back On Track

***UPDATE: 7.00pm- Exercise complete- feeling great!***

I managed to claw my way back yesterday and I am feeling better already. It is good to feel like I have some control back over my life.

I had a terrible week of food last week and by Sunday night I felt puffy and bloated and all of my clothes were starting to feel uncomfortable. As much as I enjoyed all the yummy treats I ate last week, I don't want to go back to that lifestyle.

So I am back on track food wise and tonight I am even going to do some exercise. I have barely exercised in weeks (maybe months...) and I can really see it in my body. Everything feels loose and flabby. So now that I have announced I am going to exercise tonight, can someone please kick my arse if I don't do it? Thanks.

Falling...

I am falling off the wagon. I feel like I have lost all my weight loss spark. I just can't seem to get myself motivated to eat healthy or exercise. Every day that goes by with me eating crap I feel more panicked and disappointed in myself.

I hate this feeling, I feel so powerless and it just seems to come on with no warning. One day I feel unstoppable and then all of a sudden I just can't do it.

I really want to lose weight and get healthy and everyday I wake up with good intentions, but they all go out the window by lunch time. Then I eat too much and feel repulsive. It is a miserable cycle that I don't want to get stuck in again.

I am writing this down in the hope it will help me get back up on the wagon. Blogging is the best way to be honest to myself.

Official After Holiday Weigh In

I weighed myself this morning and I am back down to 103.9 kilos! I have changed scales recently and my new scales are about 1.5 kilos lower then my old scales, but I am pretty sure my new ones are more accurate. I wish losing 1.5 kilos was always so easy...

So I have 4 weeks until I got to Japan, if I can lose 4 kilos in that time I will be under 100 kilos before I go!!! It will be such a confidence booster to be under 100, I always feel so much better and more normal under 100 kilos.

I am so glad it is Friday! I still have to get through this day first though, I have so much work to do... Weekend plans: Shopping tomorrow, then to Geelong for a weekend with my old work mates there. Should be fun!

Turning Japanese

I don't know why I write such stupid titles. By the way, someone told me that song is about masturbating. I had no idea...

Anyway, what I am actually posting about is my exciting news. I found out today that my work are sending me to Tokyo for about 10 days at the end of this month. I am so excited!!!

I will have to actually work of course, but I will have 4 days off during that time to explore the city. It should be a blast, I have met some of my Japanese colleagues and they are so much fun.

Can't wait for some authentic sushi!!!

Now how much weight can I lose between now and then... It wouldn't be me if I didn't make this about weight loss! :-)

Spring has sprung

It is that time of year again... spring started yesterday, which means that summer is coming. We have had lots of sunny weather in Melbourne over the last week and it has given me a huge kick in the backside to get in shape before summer hits with a vengence.

To give you a particularly embarrassing/gross example of this is that I started getting a sweat rash under my stomach from the heat this week. I carry most of my weight around my middle (like most girls with PCOS) and in the hotter months it can get nasty under there. I have to use powder to stop the rash and it is painful and disgusting. I don't know if I can do enough to stop this happening again by this summer, but it is good inspiration anyway.

So there are about 12 weeks until summer and I intend to do some serious weight loss damage in that time. I am making a vow to be under 100 kilos by summer. If I can do this (when I do this) it will be the first time I have been under 100 kilos for summer in 9 years. I am not a big fan of the heat and I tend to gain weight in this time, rather then lose it like most people. This summer will be different.

Speaking of weight, I gained a ton of it on my holiday. I peaked at the scales last week and had gained a massive 5 kilos, now I have TTOM so it is only going to be worse. I think a lot of that will come off in the first week or two, there is no way I gained 5 kilos of pure fat! I'll do an official weigh in tomorrow.

Coming up over the next few months I have the following events that I want to get into shape for, most of which will require me wearing a dress or being in photos that will hang in my family house for the next 40 years:

My graduation from uni
My cousins engagement cocktail party
Spring racing carnivale- Melbourne Cup
My brothers wedding

I also have heaps of birthday parties and smaller events in the next few months as well, so it is going to be a huge challenge to lose weight as well enjoy myself at all of these events. I just need to accept that there are going to be days when I eat/drink more then I should, but the next day I just keep going and not beat myself up.