I have been feeling much more tender and sore on my back and sides this week, which I am guessing might be because some of the numbness is wearing off. My back and sides had most of the liposuction so they are my most swollen and sore areas. My stomach is still fairly numb and bloated and when I wash myself in the shower I can't really feel anything. It is especially weird when I wash my new little belly button, I can't believe it is my body, whose belly button is this I am washing? One funny thing about my new belly button is that it is so much higher than it used to be. I used to see girls wearing their pants below their belly button and didn't understand how it was possible because mine hung so low, but now I see where a normal belly button is supposed to be and it all makes sense...
I am sleeping a little better this week, managing to get 4-5 hours sleep a night, which has made me a bit less foggy. I am still exhausted all the time though and I almost fall asleep just from blinking by the time the afternoon rolls around. One annoying thing about the lack of sleep is that I get double vision from being so tired and it makes texting and emailing difficult, let me tell you, I have sent some pretty incomprehensible messages lately!
I am still spending most of my days relaxing in bed because when I try to do too much more I end up exhausted and very swollen. To keep myself occupied I been doing an insane amount of online shopping. It's too soon for me to know what my measurements will be when the swelling goes down so I currently have a lot of items saved in my favourites on a lot of different websites. I can't see that I will ever have the money to buy any of the clothes I am coveting, but it is fun looking! I am just worried that one day when I am browsing at 4.00 am I will be so tired and dazed that I will go crazy max out my credit card on pretty things. I don't trust myself at all so I think it is best that I stick to Pinterest right now!
On Thursday night AJ had a hair appointment at a shopping mall so I decided to be
You guessed it, the size 12 fit me and I bought my first ever item of clothing in a size 12! My whole life I have wanted to fit into size 12 clothing and just feel 'normal' so this was quite a moment for me. I really don't think it has sunk in to be honest, it is just too surreal that I could be wearing a size 12, in my head I am still morbidly obese. Now unfortunately I can't say that I am a real size 12 just yet because I was massively assisted by the stretchy waist on the skirt. Also, another dress I bought was a size 14 and I still have quite a few size 14 and 16 dresses in my wardrobe that don't actually fit me yet. So, like every other woman in the world, I am about 3 different sizes, depending on the cut and elasticity...
|I am exhausted, sore and hunched over in this photo, but I still had to celebrate the moment|
|Me and AJ at the new house, look how pasty I look in comparison to AJ!|