I am now 6 weeks out from my body lift surgery and I should be starting to feel a lot better and maybe even getting back into exercise by now. Unfortunately I seem to have overdone it in the last week or two and I have set my progress back a few weeks. I feel as sore and bloated as I felt at about 3 weeks post surgery and I have no one to blame but myself.
I am terrible at saying no to people and I constantly worry I will disappoint or offend someone by not being who they want me to be. I go along being all chirpy and normal and everyone thinks that I am OK because I hate for people to fuss or worry about me. Unfortunately that can lead to doing way more than I should be doing when my body is recovering from major surgery.
I am back to not sleeping because of the pain and discomfort of the swelling, which was fine when I was at home on sick leave, it's not fine when I have to maintain a full time job! I can barely stand up straight and my scar is burning like it is on fire in some places. I am very lucky that the damage isn't worse and that I haven't split any of my scars open.
I am really quite pissed off with myself because it is utterly stupid to put my body through so much when it is crying out for me to stop. Now with my birthday, Christmas and New Years in the next couple of weeks surely it'll be easy to put my feet up and rest... ha ha!
So enough of the 'poor me' carry-on, the more important question is how am I looking? Here is a photo I took of myself last week. This is the first (and only) time I have gone out without my compression garment. I did still wear a (cheap Target version) spanx bodysuit underneath my clothes, but I was much happier when I got home and could put my full compression suit back on. My surgeon has said that I don't have to wear the compression garment any longer if I don't want to, but I am much more comfortable with it on 24/7!
One thing is for sure, I have got to put the sweets away if I want to keep my flat tummy because I am a chocolate/ice cream/gingerbread/toffee eating machine right now. I am looking forward to a fresh start in 2013, but in the meantime I need to limit the damage!