Friday Weigh In- 29 June

Start: 87.5 kilos (192.5 lbs)
Last week: 83.6 kilos (184 lbs)
Today: 83.2 kilos (183 lbs)
Loss: - 0.4 kilos (0.9 lb)
Total: -4.3 kilos (9.5 lbs)

I am still not eating a huge amount, but the weight loss really slowed down a lot this week. I count myself lucky that I was able to lose so much the last two weeks because my PCOS body does not usually let me lose anything like a kilo a week. I guess it helped that I wasn't able to eat food at all...

The last few days I have started to feel some severe diet burnout. The first few weeks of a diet I feel so motivated and like I can conquer the world. From there the motivation begins to wane until I am at the point where I can barely remember why I am doing this whole thing. Constant hunger and sweet cravings get the better of me and I just want to curl up with a tub of ice cream and say 'screw the diet'.

I'm not going to do that though. I tried on what I thought was my 'fat' dress the other day and I couldn't get the zip done up at all. It made me realise just how much weight I had gained in the past year. This was the black dress I wore whenever I felt the kilos creeping back on and always fit me through thick and thin. Now I can't get the zip done up and I needed assistance to peel the dress off because it was so tight.

I really didn't think I had gained that much wight. So it prompted me to go through my blog to find out how much I weighed this time last year. In my head I thought I was really fat, but I found a post from 1 July 2011 that said I was 77.1 kilos (169.5 lbs). Shit. I would kill to be back at that weight. Why did I think I was so hideously overweight last year?

And, how in the world did I let myself gain over 10 kilos in a year while I have a lap band? Holy crap I have some work to do. No time to curl up with ice cream and feel sorry for myself.

Me in my 'fat' dress last year